Wednesday, December 9, 2015
Mid Life Crisis
There really is such a thing. I feel overwhelm with stress. So much to do, so few hours a day. Of course everyone encounters these moments and from time to time it may seem like your is so much more intense than others, perhaps it is perhaps its not. Today I feel like the end of the world is at my doorstep. The day was fine until my husband ignited the flame that was about to burn, then thinking of the stuff I need done fuel this flame more. Today is a day that I would say death will solve all my problems. But in the same time create a ton of problems to the ones I'm living with. One day it will end, but not today. I'll just log off now and go suffer all the stufferings that are at my doorstep.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
30 days...one month left
Well well well...coming to the home stretch of my 3rd and final pregnancy. June 21st is the due date, but I doubt it will actually be. Going to be fun to have a new member to our family, going to be fun to play and attend to a newborn again. I so enjoyed my previous two pregnancies and 'new mother' stages, it came and went so fast that I don't really remember much detail about it.
Baby is very active, lots of moving abouts inside and lots of discomfort on my part. But I do love every bit of it. Names have been fun to choose...for a little girl, I've decided on Kathryn. For a little boy...Ivan or Ethan...not sure what I am leaning towards yet. Either way, I am very excited and can't wait to see this little bundle of joy make its great debut in the next month.
Much has happen since the last post. On April 5th, I was contacted by Julie Gutwein, she is the real estate agent that has been hunting down houses for me to view for the past 3 years!! Should of had her sold my current house back in 2006, would of make a bundle of cash! House was built in 2002 and I moved in here in early 2003. Lovely and grand is what I can say about this house, but very hard to maintain and upkeep, especially with two young children and a 3rd one on the way. The 70tairs alone are giving me nightmares! Julie called me that morning and asked if I was still interested in a house that I saw earlier this year..back in January. She said the house was listed for $315K in January and suddenly dropped to $230K this morning. That afternoon, we looked at it, and made an offer on it the next morning. A few hours later on Tuesday (after the placing the offer) Julie told me my offer was accepted. After getting things approved and documents in order, on May 5th, we closed the house and I got the key later that evening. So now I have two houses!!
Harold Monroe is painting the house...11 colors!! Kitchen has an accent wall that is RED DELICIOUS, which is also the color of the half wall in the center of the house. The 'dining nook' and garage is in SOOTHING GREEN TEA. Audrey's room is VERY VIOLET and PINK. Nicholas has SWEET BABY BLUE and PISTACHIO ICE CREAM GREEN. Master room is CREAMY MOCHA with a AMETHYST PURPLE accent wall. Powder room is AGED TEAK (dark brown) along with the back wall of three display niches. The rest of the walls are VENETIAN STUCCO (yellow goldish) and all the trims and ceiling are CRISP LINEN WHITE. VERY excited to see the finished product!
Time to cook my midnite meal...
Baby is very active, lots of moving abouts inside and lots of discomfort on my part. But I do love every bit of it. Names have been fun to choose...for a little girl, I've decided on Kathryn. For a little boy...Ivan or Ethan...not sure what I am leaning towards yet. Either way, I am very excited and can't wait to see this little bundle of joy make its great debut in the next month.
Much has happen since the last post. On April 5th, I was contacted by Julie Gutwein, she is the real estate agent that has been hunting down houses for me to view for the past 3 years!! Should of had her sold my current house back in 2006, would of make a bundle of cash! House was built in 2002 and I moved in here in early 2003. Lovely and grand is what I can say about this house, but very hard to maintain and upkeep, especially with two young children and a 3rd one on the way. The 70tairs alone are giving me nightmares! Julie called me that morning and asked if I was still interested in a house that I saw earlier this year..back in January. She said the house was listed for $315K in January and suddenly dropped to $230K this morning. That afternoon, we looked at it, and made an offer on it the next morning. A few hours later on Tuesday (after the placing the offer) Julie told me my offer was accepted. After getting things approved and documents in order, on May 5th, we closed the house and I got the key later that evening. So now I have two houses!!
Harold Monroe is painting the house...11 colors!! Kitchen has an accent wall that is RED DELICIOUS, which is also the color of the half wall in the center of the house. The 'dining nook' and garage is in SOOTHING GREEN TEA. Audrey's room is VERY VIOLET and PINK. Nicholas has SWEET BABY BLUE and PISTACHIO ICE CREAM GREEN. Master room is CREAMY MOCHA with a AMETHYST PURPLE accent wall. Powder room is AGED TEAK (dark brown) along with the back wall of three display niches. The rest of the walls are VENETIAN STUCCO (yellow goldish) and all the trims and ceiling are CRISP LINEN WHITE. VERY excited to see the finished product!
Time to cook my midnite meal...
Monday, March 22, 2010
less than 3 months to go...
Pregnancy is so much fun, love the way the body can accommodate so much to allow another little person to grow inside for a whole nine plus months! Under three months remaining in this pregnancy, my last and final one. Three children is perfect company.
I've been wondering if its a boy or girl...so much fun it has been to guess and watch others guess. I thought it was a boy cause of the same symptoms I've had with Nicholas were recurring. But recently, I've been craving the foods that I craved when I had Audrey...so its a flip of a coin again! Haha
William just returned from a short trip to Hong Kong, upon returning he said that his Mother thinks I'm carrying a boy, his Father thinks I'm carrying a girl. He himself thinks its a girl too.
I've been wondering if its a boy or girl...so much fun it has been to guess and watch others guess. I thought it was a boy cause of the same symptoms I've had with Nicholas were recurring. But recently, I've been craving the foods that I craved when I had Audrey...so its a flip of a coin again! Haha
William just returned from a short trip to Hong Kong, upon returning he said that his Mother thinks I'm carrying a boy, his Father thinks I'm carrying a girl. He himself thinks its a girl too.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Scar
On November 24th, Tuesday morning, my sweet little Nicholas had a very bad fall. We had just finished eating oranges in the family room, I picked up all the peels and went in the kitchen. Just then I heard Nicholas crying, a cry that I don't recognize, a cry that I've never heard before, I drop everything in my hands and ran over to him. I saw him his lying on his back crying, I saw red...I saw blood on the floor on both sides of him, as I got to him, I saw his right upper corner of his forehead was bleeding, squirting out blood!!
I picked him up in my right arm and used my left hand to cover his cut, applying pressure to help stop the bleeding, rushed over to the kitchen to get a clean towel. As I removed my hand to put the towel on, the cup of my palms filled with blood in the two seconds it took to get the towel on. Took back him back to the family room, put him on the floor and put another clean towel (from the laundry basket) on this cut, then grab the silk scarf that was on the floor next to him and wrapped the towel really tight. He was still crying in pain...so I picked him up and went to get my phone, purse and keys. Told Audrey to put shoes on while I was doing that, we got in the car and I put towel on the side of Nicholas head, put his head on it to rest, and told him not to move. He was such a good sport about it, he didn't move at all during the whole trip to the ER. Sometime during the chaos of getting ready and getting in the car, Nicholas had calm down and stop crying.
I had called Dr. Tan's office to see if I we should bring him there for stitches, but the line was busy, after two attempts, I decided to go to the ER at West Valley Hospital. Poor baby must of been in such pain, he was barely able to open his eyes, I told Audrey to look at him and talk to him. They are such amazing kids, what did I ever do to deserve them, I love them both so so much!
After filling out the information sheet, we waited a few minutes and got called in to the triage nurse for assessment. After checking his blood pressure the nurse said he was fine, its normal. After another few moments we were lead back to a room to wait for the doctor. Two doctors and a nurse came in a few minutes later, asked what happen and look at his wound. They said he will need stitches and they will be back in a few minutes to do it. When they return to the room, they wrapped Nicholas up in the blanket to prevent him from moving, one person was there to hold his body, another was there to hold his head while the doctor did the stitches.
I didn't stay to watch, I had a nature call, so Audrey and I went to the bathroom and Nicholas started crying at the top of his lungs again. After about 10 minutes, we returned and he was all ready done, and has stop crying til he saw me. I held him and he stop crying, ask him if he was ok, he nodded his head. I told him its going to fine now, we are going to go home, and he hugged me really tight around the neck. Poor baby must of been scared while I was away.
After sitting in the waiting area for 10 minutes, the doctor came and gave us instructions of what to do and then we left. Called Dr. Tan's office to schedule a follow up for the following day. Stitches looked good according to the doctor, and the following Monday, they were removed. He was such a good sport the entire time, he let me put ointment on and wrap it up in bandage, although he pulled it off when he fell asleep, he still let me wrap it time after time.
Today...three weeks since the incident, he has a little line, very straight line, about 3/4 inch long, no more an 2-3mm wide, and its healing nicely.
I picked him up in my right arm and used my left hand to cover his cut, applying pressure to help stop the bleeding, rushed over to the kitchen to get a clean towel. As I removed my hand to put the towel on, the cup of my palms filled with blood in the two seconds it took to get the towel on. Took back him back to the family room, put him on the floor and put another clean towel (from the laundry basket) on this cut, then grab the silk scarf that was on the floor next to him and wrapped the towel really tight. He was still crying in pain...so I picked him up and went to get my phone, purse and keys. Told Audrey to put shoes on while I was doing that, we got in the car and I put towel on the side of Nicholas head, put his head on it to rest, and told him not to move. He was such a good sport about it, he didn't move at all during the whole trip to the ER. Sometime during the chaos of getting ready and getting in the car, Nicholas had calm down and stop crying.
I had called Dr. Tan's office to see if I we should bring him there for stitches, but the line was busy, after two attempts, I decided to go to the ER at West Valley Hospital. Poor baby must of been in such pain, he was barely able to open his eyes, I told Audrey to look at him and talk to him. They are such amazing kids, what did I ever do to deserve them, I love them both so so much!
After filling out the information sheet, we waited a few minutes and got called in to the triage nurse for assessment. After checking his blood pressure the nurse said he was fine, its normal. After another few moments we were lead back to a room to wait for the doctor. Two doctors and a nurse came in a few minutes later, asked what happen and look at his wound. They said he will need stitches and they will be back in a few minutes to do it. When they return to the room, they wrapped Nicholas up in the blanket to prevent him from moving, one person was there to hold his body, another was there to hold his head while the doctor did the stitches.
I didn't stay to watch, I had a nature call, so Audrey and I went to the bathroom and Nicholas started crying at the top of his lungs again. After about 10 minutes, we returned and he was all ready done, and has stop crying til he saw me. I held him and he stop crying, ask him if he was ok, he nodded his head. I told him its going to fine now, we are going to go home, and he hugged me really tight around the neck. Poor baby must of been scared while I was away.
After sitting in the waiting area for 10 minutes, the doctor came and gave us instructions of what to do and then we left. Called Dr. Tan's office to schedule a follow up for the following day. Stitches looked good according to the doctor, and the following Monday, they were removed. He was such a good sport the entire time, he let me put ointment on and wrap it up in bandage, although he pulled it off when he fell asleep, he still let me wrap it time after time.
Today...three weeks since the incident, he has a little line, very straight line, about 3/4 inch long, no more an 2-3mm wide, and its healing nicely.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
One bad day....
Some days are great, some days are alright, some just go by...but today is very bad.
Just moments ago, both kids were hanging on the Evenflo cloth gate, and BANG...both fell backwards off one step to the tile floor, great job! Nicholas has a chestnut size bump on his head now.
Just before that, Audrey slam the door with Nicholas hand in it, so its bruised and cut. Poor baby, always getting hurt.
I spent 2 hours mopping the floor last night after the kids went to bed. I told Audrey to be careful and not dirty the floor....just after I said that! A few minutes later, she sprays sunscreen all over the laundry room floor! Her punishment was pretty bad, I put her in the storage room and told her not to come out. But did she learn her lesson...of course NOT. Let her out and she continues to be destructive.
One more hour...then I can take them upstairs for a bath and bed....AHHHHH
Just moments ago, both kids were hanging on the Evenflo cloth gate, and BANG...both fell backwards off one step to the tile floor, great job! Nicholas has a chestnut size bump on his head now.
Just before that, Audrey slam the door with Nicholas hand in it, so its bruised and cut. Poor baby, always getting hurt.
I spent 2 hours mopping the floor last night after the kids went to bed. I told Audrey to be careful and not dirty the floor....just after I said that! A few minutes later, she sprays sunscreen all over the laundry room floor! Her punishment was pretty bad, I put her in the storage room and told her not to come out. But did she learn her lesson...of course NOT. Let her out and she continues to be destructive.
One more hour...then I can take them upstairs for a bath and bed....AHHHHH
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Stress...
Sometimes things in life don't happening according to plans. When unexpected events occur, stress often develops in the process of finding the most suitable solution. Even though it maybe not be in the best of life's interest, its the right choice at the time. With or without regrets, life goes on. Time will smooth the rough edges, time will ease the pain, and only time can show true love.
Call it mid life crisis or human error...perhaps even a little laziness...or maybe its a combination of all. Either way, life goes on, the earth continues to revolve, sunrise and sundown follow one another each day. The little problems in my life are really so small when compare to the size of this world, why must I dwell upon these and create the stress that really shouldn't be. That is life...we see ourselves as the center of the universe and nothing else really matters, but that truly is not the case.
Remind myself to look at the big picture each time I build up tension...
Call it mid life crisis or human error...perhaps even a little laziness...or maybe its a combination of all. Either way, life goes on, the earth continues to revolve, sunrise and sundown follow one another each day. The little problems in my life are really so small when compare to the size of this world, why must I dwell upon these and create the stress that really shouldn't be. That is life...we see ourselves as the center of the universe and nothing else really matters, but that truly is not the case.
Remind myself to look at the big picture each time I build up tension...
Friday, November 6, 2009
Time Flies
Several months has pass since my last post. So much has happened and changed, not sure where I should start...
September 22, William came to AZ. On the 25th, we drove out to LA to catch the red eye flight to Hong Kong. 15 hours later, we arrived in HK, local time was about 8AM on the 26th. The trip was extremely rushed, didn't even have time to go shopping! On October 2nd, Ricky and Maggie had a wedding reception. Going all the way out, we spent the initial week there getting ready for that event. Between October 6-12th, we were in Shanghai eating our hearts out. Have to mention the wonderful hot and sour soup that Uncle Anson took us to eat at this local stop, nothing fancy but excellent food. Then the next day, we met with Yau, had dinner at a fancy restaurant that had a very very yummy sour mustard fish soup, slightly spicy, slightly sour, excellent flavor. The days before, we had 'big tied crabs', 'little dragon buns' and lots of other neat foods, all were very interesting, most I had never had before.
After returning to HK, we spend a day at Lantau Island, riding on the crystal cabin across the mountains passing the airport to the big Buddha. The glass floor on the cabin was super exciting for the kids, at first Nicholas sat so still he didn't move because he thought we would fall out. After showing him that we could stand on the glass and didn't fall, he was so excited he danced and jumped around. The next day, Oct 14th, we joined Christine, Rachel and Russel for a day at Disneyland Hong Kong. Again the kids had a great deal of fun. Both Audrey and Nicholas rode in all the rides, carousel, flying Dumbo, little world boat ride, autopia car driving (Nicholas barely tall enough for it 82cm, 81cm was minimum), spinning teacups...oh dear what else did we go on. It was fun!
Nicholas is such a lady magnetic. Just standing there looking at the 'milkway' display, he had several ladies approaching him to play with him. One lady ran around chasing him for a few minutes...until her boyfriend asked her to leave for the 3rd time! She was having fun chasing him around the milkway! He was giggling and running like a champ.
After the night Halloween parade and fireworks show, we left to get a late noodle dinner before going home. Spend the night packing our belongs to come home on Oct 15th.
The trip was busy, didn't have our own time to do stuff, everything was pre-arranged and schedule was not in my control. Nothing was in my control...the kids got sick, the sleep schedule was not adjusted, I was so exhausted from it all. I'll know better what to do next time.
When plans are not within our control, its best not to participate, especially when children are involved.
September 22, William came to AZ. On the 25th, we drove out to LA to catch the red eye flight to Hong Kong. 15 hours later, we arrived in HK, local time was about 8AM on the 26th. The trip was extremely rushed, didn't even have time to go shopping! On October 2nd, Ricky and Maggie had a wedding reception. Going all the way out, we spent the initial week there getting ready for that event. Between October 6-12th, we were in Shanghai eating our hearts out. Have to mention the wonderful hot and sour soup that Uncle Anson took us to eat at this local stop, nothing fancy but excellent food. Then the next day, we met with Yau, had dinner at a fancy restaurant that had a very very yummy sour mustard fish soup, slightly spicy, slightly sour, excellent flavor. The days before, we had 'big tied crabs', 'little dragon buns' and lots of other neat foods, all were very interesting, most I had never had before.
After returning to HK, we spend a day at Lantau Island, riding on the crystal cabin across the mountains passing the airport to the big Buddha. The glass floor on the cabin was super exciting for the kids, at first Nicholas sat so still he didn't move because he thought we would fall out. After showing him that we could stand on the glass and didn't fall, he was so excited he danced and jumped around. The next day, Oct 14th, we joined Christine, Rachel and Russel for a day at Disneyland Hong Kong. Again the kids had a great deal of fun. Both Audrey and Nicholas rode in all the rides, carousel, flying Dumbo, little world boat ride, autopia car driving (Nicholas barely tall enough for it 82cm, 81cm was minimum), spinning teacups...oh dear what else did we go on. It was fun!
Nicholas is such a lady magnetic. Just standing there looking at the 'milkway' display, he had several ladies approaching him to play with him. One lady ran around chasing him for a few minutes...until her boyfriend asked her to leave for the 3rd time! She was having fun chasing him around the milkway! He was giggling and running like a champ.
After the night Halloween parade and fireworks show, we left to get a late noodle dinner before going home. Spend the night packing our belongs to come home on Oct 15th.
The trip was busy, didn't have our own time to do stuff, everything was pre-arranged and schedule was not in my control. Nothing was in my control...the kids got sick, the sleep schedule was not adjusted, I was so exhausted from it all. I'll know better what to do next time.
When plans are not within our control, its best not to participate, especially when children are involved.
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